This is a love letter to all of the women who want to love themselves more, break free of self-hatred, self-sabotage, anxiety, depression and playing small, figure out who they are outside of the influence of family, culture, relationship, career or personal trauma history, who want to bring their gifts to the world or live their lives in a way that’s more aligned, integrous, purposeful, passionate, intuitive.
Can you relate? Yup, I thought so!
Whether you’ve played by the rules to get by and get ahead, or been a rebel from the get-go, it’s inevitable that you’ve been held back in one way or another.
This may have been by the unique circumstances of your individual life or by the insidious, centuries old influence of the patriarchal system. Actually these are one in the same, inseparable because your individual circumstances are ultimately the by-product of a system that is based on the disempowerment, submission and dishonoring of the feminine. But that’s a whole other post…or book…for another day.
And this is a love letter, after all!
Sweet sister, I know that you’ve often felt unseen, unheard and unsupported.
Maybe you were told that you were (and maybe still are) bad, unworthy, undeserving, weird, too sensitive, too much, not enough, too bossy, too quiet, too stupid, too smart, shameful, too sexual, not sexual enough, too fat, too thin, crazy, selfish…and the list goes on.
More heartbreaking than having been told those things, usually by people who were meant to love and protect you, is that some part of you believed them. And, over time, you began to think of yourself in those ways.
Do you see what a trap this is?
Just for a moment I want you to hear a different voice, one that can offer a different perspective. I’d like you to hear my voice.
Just for a moment, hear the voice that says you are lovable, worthy, deserving and accepted just as you are.
I have the honor and the pleasure to work with so many of you and I get to see your beauty and your brilliance, right alongside your tender, broken heart.
I love and am constantly in awe of your strength, resiliency, quirkiness, ability to feel deeply, your sensitive, empathic, intuitive nature, your righteous anger, ability to dream big, learn how to trust yourself, your willingness to do the deep, hard work, your compassion, grit and ability to laugh even in the midst of deeply painful moments.
Do you know how freaking amazing you are? Do you have any idea that if you’ve made it this far you can do anything, with the right support.
Here’s what I really want you to know, despite what you might think in this moment:
- You are not crazy, but you may have developed some unhealthy patterns of thinking, feeling and behaving as a result of early life experiences.
- You are not your story.Historical events and the interpretations and beliefs of other people in your life, each with their own pain and stories, have nothing to do with the truth of who you are as a Divine expression of the energy that created you.
- You did not create the situations or circumstancesthat caused you mental, emotional, physical or spiritual pain and left you believing that you are unlovable, undeserving, shameful or insignificant. You are not responsible for the things that happened to you or in your family.
- You can heal the wounded parts of yourself, break free from the inner critic and self-saboteur and create an authentic, purposeful and joyful life.
I want you to know that your Soul, that which is the spark of the divine within you, came to Earth at this time to make a difference in this crazy evolutionary process that we are going through.
You could have stayed on the other side, with all the unicorns, fairies, angels and sunflowers.
But your Soul chose to come down here, to this planet of density and hard knocks, because you wanted to grow and learn. This school called Earth may have given you a really tough curriculum, but it’s all been in preparation for your Soul’s highest expression in this lifetime.
It may be hard to wrap your head around, but I believe that all of the challenges and trauma that you’ve been through will actually become your Superpowers as you do your healing work.
I believe that we’re at a critical time in our evolution on this planet and that women will play a crucial role in creating a more loving, nurturing and sustainable world. We do this as we heal our emotional wounds, awaken to spiritual truths and focus our creative energy into becoming the highest version of our Soul’s expression.
The Divine Feminine is rising and we are feeling her labor pains as she begins to give birth to a new world…a world that we are all being called to create!
Back in 2008, Mary Magdalene and Yeshua, gave me a mission to help create Heaven on Earth by healing the wounded feminine, anchoring in higher Divine Feminine Energy and bringing the feminine/masculine energy back into balance.
To be honest, I didn’t really have any idea what all of that meant but on a deep Soul level I knew it to be true. And they gave me their word that they would guide me on my path so that I could guide others.
That day, as everyone else in the room left for lunch, I sat sobbing as I tried to process the power and the enormity of that message.
I’ve spent the last 15 years taking baby steps in this direction.
The time for baby steps is over. This crazy world, so out of balance with the egoic masculine, is gasping for breath and fighting like hell to hold the power and control it’s had for centuries.
It’s time for the women who feel called to create a new world to come together, share our visions and support each other in our healing and awakening.
It’s time to become the ones we’ve been waiting for!
I look forward to connecting with you more in 2024 to uplevel this work that we came here to do!
I love you.
From my sacred heart to yours,
Catherine